So...last week, I just couldn't do it. I felt that I had nothing inspirational to say. Everything sounded fake...my heart was hurting and I didn't feel like writing about it. So this week, my heart is still hurting, and I still don't feel like writing about it...but maybe it's better to just be honest. It's one of those things that I can't really share, but I've been thinking about this...where is God when life doesn't make sense? Where is God when I can't feel His presence, and I read the bible and feel nothing...and pray and can barely get the words out? Where is He when I'm questioning everything? When I'm angry and afraid? When I am completely overwhelmed and don't know where to start?
Sometimes I really don't understand, but I knew He's here...He promised me,
"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." (Hebrews 13:5)
I know He's always with me, even when I can't feel His presence. I started looking for little signs of God breaking into my world...and I started noticing little things, like an encouraging word from a friend, a hug, my favorite song on the radio, happy news, good memories and dreams, signs of spring, a beautiful sunset...not only is He always here, but He cares enough to speak to me in "my language", through the little things that only a friend would know.
So, if I could say one thing today...it's that there will be tough days. Just keep moving, one step at a time...it does get better. Don't ever think that you don't matter or that you're not important. Don't measure your success by comparing yourself to others. You are loved more deeply than you know...your life is important and connected to so many others. There are people who love you just the way you are, for your strengths and your weaknesses. One person's life touches many others...you may never know what an impact you have. Don't lose heart...and don't ever give up!
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